Dying in...dying insidei've tried to find a way to crywithout you even noticingi can't let you see me slowly dying inside....you tell me that my love is trueand that my heart was always purebut now it's time to realize it's overif you can't you can see it nowi don't know how to tell youthat i'm dying insidethe tears are slowly runnin downas i stand out in the rainbut all you see is rain gliding face when that is the tears in placei need you to notice that it will be overtry not to take it to hardbut knowing you, you willit might be to late to tell you all things you don't want heari'll be gone sooni really don't want to leave without youbut i know you will find someone newas much as it hurts to sayi love you and good bye
Little miss dyingLittle miss dying insideshe wears bruises on her heart,and bandages on her arms.she likes to pretend that,nothing with her is ever wrong.but she cant hide the fact,that she will always feel alone.and pretending that she isnt fucked up,is less comforting than actually feeling whole.so lets continue on,and ignore her tear stained cheeks.because even though she says she is okay,she really wants you to open your eyes and see.she wants someone to stop her,and look her in the eye.she wants someone to tell her,to stop living this lie.but so far she is of no importance,and people ignore her cries.i guess no one will care for,little miss dying inside.
CrawlingBy:Raynevamp123Crawling in my skinThese wounds they will not healFear is how I fallConfusing what is realThere's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface,Consuming, confusing,This lack of self-control I fear is never ending, controlling,I can't seem, to find myself againMy walls are closing inI've felt this way beforeSo insecureCrawling in my skinThese wounds they will not healFear is how I fallConfusing what is realDiscomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon meDistracting, reactingAgainst my will I stand beside my own reflectionIt's haunting how I can't seemTo find myself againMy walls are closing inI've felt this way beforeSo insecure...Crawling in my skinThese wounds they will not healFear is how I fallConfusing what is real
LostI feel hollow, dead, cold.So empty, I can't even feel pain.My heart seems to be made of ice.Everything I do, say, mean, is cold.But nothing changes.I've stopped telling, explaining how I feel.All I ever got were hateful words or ignorance.I dont dare to talk anymore,Because for everything I say, people hate me.And nothing changes.I dont know what I've done,But by now, I dont know anything anymore.I dont even know myself.Who I am, what I want, where I go.And nothing changes.Voices in my head tell me to stop caring,But I cant, and they scare me.I dont want to go insane,But where pain turns to ice, hope seems lost.And nothing changes.Im unable to quit my life and start flying away.Im flying into thoughts, songs, words...But everytime I open my eyes it has gone worse.And I wonder how I go on, day after day.And nothing changes.I cant warm my soul, not even right now.I switch between pain and a numb feeling I cant explain,And nothing else matters anymore.But I kee
Would You Miss Me?Would you miss me, if I said I’d die tomorrow?Would you kiss me, as I lay thereIn that six by four foot hollow?Do you think that I would be remembered?Or would my name burn to ash as soon asMy life is ended?Could you not bear to be beside me?Would you leave a grieving mother to thinkI am where she should be?Would you miss me, if I said I’d not be home?I love you and if I had a choice thenI’d not leave you alone.Take care of my family, tell them where to goIf they’re asking after me, where I amTell them you knowWould you tell me that you’d not loved completely?Until we held hands and you knew that you were,In love with me?Would you ask for money that you think you’re due?Or would you want the book of poetry,That’s all about you?Would you miss me?As I hang up the phone for the last timeWould you miss me?As you sit and hold yourself closeLike I do now your life is throughWould you miss me,Like I still miss you?
Keep DreamingIn my dreamsI see youthe warmth and gentlenessof your embraceIn my dreamsit is my realityYou are always therewhenever I think of youIn my dreamsyou are holding me tightKeeping me safewhen I feel downI keep on dreamingwishing you were hereTo me it is my realityand you are fate to my lifeI will always dream foreverCause in my dreamsYou are always thereloving and caring for me until the end
I Am So SorryI am so sorry for what I do to you.I just can't help some of what I do.I can tell in your eyes, you're in pain.In your shoes, I would be the same.I wish I could show, how much you mean to me.When you look at me, I wonder what you see.I want to say it's over; do it no more.In my head I'm fighting a terrible war.I promise I'm trying as hard as I can.Please believe me. I promise I am.You still accept me; hold me tight.It will be tough, but I will win the fight.I hope you know how much I really care.I can't believe that you're still there.
A Deceitful SmileDepressed and brokeSo hurt insideI can see the sadnessIn your eyesYour beautiful smileFull of liesA laugh is sweetAnd hypnotizingYou're always upsetAlways cryingBeautiful girlYou need to smileA fixed smileA loving smileA Real Smile
AloneA mumble of words,Fills the room.Laughs and gossip,Sneak their way into my ears.But alone you sit,Not a word escaping.Alone you sit,Your head low.Alone you sit,Without a friend.Does it hurt,To be ignored?Does it ache,To hear their laughter?I’ll clench my fist,And stare numbly,As I’m too afraid,To say hey.
Something for someone was everythingsomething cannot be repairedsomething was never a truthsomething has already failedsomething reminds me of yousomeone will sleep in my bedsomeone will tell me the truthsomeone will have to amendsomeone but surely not youeverything i had is to erase,cause everything was two faced.everything was such a freaking mazenow everything is burning in flames
AloneWhen I am alonein the darkness of my room,Sleep is approaching,but my mind's a labyrinth tooI navigate the pathwaystrying to understand:How in a room so empty,lonely I never am
I love myselfI need to love myselfI need to careI need to be myselfI need to standI got to love myselfFor who I amI got to see myselfLike no one elseSo I will love myselfAnd I will careI’m gonna free myselfFrom this despair
She Gave Up on LoveShe gave up on loveThrew it all awayPretended to smileBut it wasn’t the samePeople stared at herAsked if she was okayBut it didn’t matterAll her feelings felt the sameShe could feel nothingAnd everything all at onceSometimes the painOnly felt like a plusShe lost all controlOf the life she once knewSo she tried to spare the changeWhere the change was dueShe let go of thingsThat were holding her backStarted to write as a hobbyA talent she didn’t lackShe woke up one morningAnd knew everything was okayFor Time can heal allIf you wish it that wayAnd she smiles through the nightWatching the stars swallow the skyA little happiness is worth moreThan anything money can buy