When dreams dieHow do you know when your dream has died?I think its happening to me now.Such terrible emptiness inside me.I feel hollow.Like something is missing.Is part of me missing?Has my dreams truly died.Have I killed them?Who is to blame.No one.....Everyone......Who decides?Tears pour down my face.I hate this feeling.This hollowness inside.Can someone help me?Would someone help me?How could they???These thoughts....These doubts all add to the emptiness.They don't fill it...The void is growing larger.There is a pain in my chest, I think its my heart dying.Being slowly eaten by the darkness now residing where my dream was in my mind.Many people have many dreams, right?Then why did I have but one?And why did it have to die?I want to end it but I lack the courage to try.Just like I don't have the courage to try to keep the dream alive.When I write this I'm not garnering sympathy.I'm telling you about my dreams death.Someone most tell of it.No one else will or even wi
Depression HurtsBroken, shattered, torn into piecesCaught in a world where everyday life ceasesDepression, cutting, bleeding my heartEverything I loved is all falling apartEveryday life feels more like a choreThere's not a whole lot I can do anymoreI don't expect you to understand the painalthough, if you did, I wouldn't have to explainOne cannot say "no pain no gain"For emotional pain is hard to maintainIt cuts deeper than the deepest cutImagine a wound that would never shutYou bleed and bleed but you put on a smilethinking if you do, the pain would go away for a whileBut at night is when it all comes backeverything you tried hard for, all falls off trackYou often wonder if life is worth livingwhen people around you can be so unforgivingand no matter how much you try to stop cryinginside, emotionally, you feel like your dyingBefore you even think or say "stop being so depressed"We wish we could and it's causing us more stressIt doesn't go away with a mere hug or a kissDo you re
LostI feel hollow, dead, cold.So empty, I can't even feel pain.My heart seems to be made of ice.Everything I do, say, mean, is cold.But nothing changes.I've stopped telling, explaining how I feel.All I ever got were hateful words or ignorance.I dont dare to talk anymore,Because for everything I say, people hate me.And nothing changes.I dont know what I've done,But by now, I dont know anything anymore.I dont even know myself.Who I am, what I want, where I go.And nothing changes.Voices in my head tell me to stop caring,But I cant, and they scare me.I dont want to go insane,But where pain turns to ice, hope seems lost.And nothing changes.Im unable to quit my life and start flying away.Im flying into thoughts, songs, words...But everytime I open my eyes it has gone worse.And I wonder how I go on, day after day.And nothing changes.I cant warm my soul, not even right now.I switch between pain and a numb feeling I cant explain,And nothing else matters anymore.But I kee
Would You Miss Me?Would you miss me, if I said I’d die tomorrow?Would you kiss me, as I lay thereIn that six by four foot hollow?Do you think that I would be remembered?Or would my name burn to ash as soon asMy life is ended?Could you not bear to be beside me?Would you leave a grieving mother to thinkI am where she should be?Would you miss me, if I said I’d not be home?I love you and if I had a choice thenI’d not leave you alone.Take care of my family, tell them where to goIf they’re asking after me, where I amTell them you knowWould you tell me that you’d not loved completely?Until we held hands and you knew that you were,In love with me?Would you ask for money that you think you’re due?Or would you want the book of poetry,That’s all about you?Would you miss me?As I hang up the phone for the last timeWould you miss me?As you sit and hold yourself closeLike I do now your life is throughWould you miss me,Like I still miss you?
Keep DreamingIn my dreamsI see youthe warmth and gentlenessof your embraceIn my dreamsit is my realityYou are always therewhenever I think of youIn my dreamsyou are holding me tightKeeping me safewhen I feel downI keep on dreamingwishing you were hereTo me it is my realityand you are fate to my lifeI will always dream foreverCause in my dreamsYou are always thereloving and caring for me until the end
I Am So SorryI am so sorry for what I do to you.I just can't help some of what I do.I can tell in your eyes, you're in pain.In your shoes, I would be the same.I wish I could show, how much you mean to me.When you look at me, I wonder what you see.I want to say it's over; do it no more.In my head I'm fighting a terrible war.I promise I'm trying as hard as I can.Please believe me. I promise I am.You still accept me; hold me tight.It will be tough, but I will win the fight.I hope you know how much I really care.I can't believe that you're still there.
A Deceitful SmileDepressed and brokeSo hurt insideI can see the sadnessIn your eyesYour beautiful smileFull of liesA laugh is sweetAnd hypnotizingYou're always upsetAlways cryingBeautiful girlYou need to smileA fixed smileA loving smileA Real Smile
AloneA mumble of words,Fills the room.Laughs and gossip,Sneak their way into my ears.But alone you sit,Not a word escaping.Alone you sit,Your head low.Alone you sit,Without a friend.Does it hurt,To be ignored?Does it ache,To hear their laughter?I’ll clench my fist,And stare numbly,As I’m too afraid,To say hey.
Something for someone was everythingsomething cannot be repairedsomething was never a truthsomething has already failedsomething reminds me of yousomeone will sleep in my bedsomeone will tell me the truthsomeone will have to amendsomeone but surely not youeverything i had is to erase,cause everything was two faced.everything was such a freaking mazenow everything is burning in flames
AloneWhen I am alonein the darkness of my room,Sleep is approaching,but my mind's a labyrinth tooI navigate the pathwaystrying to understand:How in a room so empty,lonely I never am
I love myselfI need to love myselfI need to careI need to be myselfI need to standI got to love myselfFor who I amI got to see myselfLike no one elseSo I will love myselfAnd I will careI’m gonna free myselfFrom this despair
She Gave Up on LoveShe gave up on loveThrew it all awayPretended to smileBut it wasn’t the samePeople stared at herAsked if she was okayBut it didn’t matterAll her feelings felt the sameShe could feel nothingAnd everything all at onceSometimes the painOnly felt like a plusShe lost all controlOf the life she once knewSo she tried to spare the changeWhere the change was dueShe let go of thingsThat were holding her backStarted to write as a hobbyA talent she didn’t lackShe woke up one morningAnd knew everything was okayFor Time can heal allIf you wish it that wayAnd she smiles through the nightWatching the stars swallow the skyA little happiness is worth moreThan anything money can buy